Things I ended up worrying about at 3:30am when Little S decided to scream instead of sleep:
If the tomato sauce I used last night was contaminated with some horrible disease and we would all die in the night and it would all be my fault. It made a weird popping sound when I opened it and it was in a can. I knew I should have thrown that out.
What is someone against my will decided to use the pedi egg (its sort of a bottom of the foot cheese greater) on a sensitive parts of my anatomy? Yes I was watching an infomercial. The balloon thing really freaked me out.
Never ever sleeping again.
Getting fatter and fatter until I would only be able to fit into was brightly colored moo moos with large paisley patterns.
Brain tumors, epilepsy, EEG tests, and something being very wrong with my little S.
The test itself (its on Monday). I found out they will wrap her like a mummy in gauze to restrain her. Put electrodes all over her head and have her try to sleep. They may give her a sedative if she freaks out. I hope there's one for me too I'm gonna need it.
Little S dying to to a rare allergy to the sedative.
Loosing my job do to excessive blogging.
Britney Spears.
Face it I'm a mess!
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i have the worst ideas in the middle of the night and then i get up in the morning and they seem silly.....
hope you have a great day.
I do this too. Last night, I was awake at 2 AM, staring at the ceiling fan, and worrying about whether Cakes has social phobia, because she screams whenever a stranger tries to talk to her, or even come near her.
This morning, when I told my husband about my fears, he said, "Honey, she's only 20 months old. It's too early to start psychoanalyzing her."
I would definitely need the sedative for that too!
I am often amazed at how dark and hopeless things seem at night.
Hope you're feeling better now. :)
The pedi-egg and Britney Spears? Bet that doesn't happen often! I hope it doesn't! I tend to worry like crazy about the most random things, too, especially about being addicted to blogging.
Loving the site.
I think I will add you to my blog list.
Also 30-something with two kids, fat, working full time and freakishly tired.
That really is the best time for deep thoughts, huh?
I try not to think too much at night. It's never good. I love moo moos.
Sorry about your baby. I was reading your other posts on the back story to this. Hope the tests Monday come out Ok. I'll keep your family in my prayers.
Britteny Spears gives me nightmares too - lol :)
Nighttime can be so evil.
I hope tonight is much kinder to you!
Oh, hon - you need a drink! Here - I'm sending you an e-cosmo. Ah, nice and cold ain't it? Mmmm...yeah, that's top shelf stuff in there. Nothing but the best for a stressed out Mommy!
I'll say a prayer for you & S hoping Monday goes well.
All the best for Monday. I remember one hospital experience with my little one (she's now 25) I came home and hit the cooking sherry.Whatever it takes.I think you are doing a fantastic job, particularly with the night time heebie-jeebies.
I DO THE SAME THING!!!
I tell myself that only really creative, incredibly smart people can come up with such obsessive, slightly crazy thoughts. See how amazing you are!
When my nine year old was three months old, they thought he had a heart problem and put him in this plexiglass tube while they x-rayed him. He looked like such a little sausage link! Then they did all kinds of things with teensy tiny blood pressure cuffs and electrodes and found out he was perfectly, perfectly normal. A little grumpy for being put in a sausage tube, but who wouldn't be!
Hang in there!
And I'm with you on the pedi-egg thing. Yikes! That's scary.
I'm sending you a big hug and prayers for deep breathing.
Becky
Suzie, I'm sure little S will be alright. I will be thinking about her on Monday! I'll be thinking about you too. I know you'll be worried. Take something - a tranquilizer, that's okay!
You know I actually hear great things about the pedi-egg so you can put that fear to rest.
I know a bit about obsessively worrying, I'm already up at nights thinking about what if dash-1 eats something tainted with eggs or peanuts this fall in nursery school. Of course now flyboy is thinking about volunteering to do a tour in the sandbox. ARGH! Is he trying to kill me!?
I havent had to worry about seizures with my boys but I do know what its like to be afraid for your kids about their health. Its terrifying to know that you have to wait for answers and let someone else take control. Good luck, your in my thoughts.
Ah, yes... worrying when you're supposed to be trying to get to sleep! Hopefully you will have less worry about S soon!!
BTW, I tagged you for a meme on my blog...
Like John Lennon sang, whatever gets you through the night tis ALRIGHT!
I feel ya.
I think the strangest ideas come out at night...of course...because why should they come out when you are awake and thinking logically?
I'll be thinking of you tomorrow...I hope everything goes well (and you get a mom sedative too!)
I do this also. I obsess over stuff outta my control or that could never happen.
Hope the tests go smoothly on Monday.
tina :)
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