Tuesday, May 6, 2008

My Little S

This morning I was at work and I had just fed S a big bowl of squash. I was holding her against my chest and rocking her in the rocker and she fell asleep. I held her warm little body tightly tightly to mine and smelled her little sprigs of hair and stroked her little face and just felt how special and wonderful the moment was. I wanted to savor it and remember it forever.

Unfortunately I don't get to do that too much. Strangely enough work seems to be the only place we really get one on one time these days. At home B always seems to need something or some disaster strikes and poor S ends up taking a back seat. But as I held her little body close I thought about how much I love her and how lucky (pew pew kenahurah) I am to have her and this special moment.

Its funny with second children the enormous amount of time I spent with B is just not there. I don't quietly wait until the end of her nap to go out. I don't have hours to gaze into her beautiful little eyes. She has been born straight into the bussel and movement of our families life. But I feel as connected her as I do to B.

The challenge is I guess to make her feel as loved as possible. To show her that even though she may not have ever gotten the attention B did she is as loved as he is. I could have never imagined loving anyone as much as I love B but I do. Its certainly different for each kid but it is definitely as strong and amazing. I feel that I am very very blessed.

Anyway I know I am not usually a sentimental blogger but I wanted to remember it so the feeling wouldn't fade so fast. Now back to your regularly scheduled program.

10 comments:

WillThink4Wine said...

Savor each precious moment, of course. But always remember, group hugs are even better!!

Colleen said...

Beautifully written. I feel the same with my 2nd. I read a piece of advice the other day, though, that said when both are crying, tend to the older one first. He'll remember it while the baby won't. That shocked me at first, but it makes sense. Doesn't make it any easier on *us* though! Suck in as much baby-smell as you can! Its gone long before you want it to be!

Gerbil said...

very nicely put. They don't stay babies long enough, do they?

Kristin H. said...

Your baby is cute as can be :) I've read some of your posts (first time at your site) and I love it. My kids are a little older now (4 and 6) but I remember the baby days well (hard to forget.) Parenthood is HARD WORK. Hang in there~Kristin H.

We are THAT Family said...

You just captured how every mother feels after they add a second. I struggled with a lot of guilt with a toddler and newborn. But you know what's amazing? My second child is so laid back and easy going, I think this might have contributed. My first is more demanding b/c I met every need as she had it.

the teach said...

You're allowed to get sentimental every once in a while... :D

Sindi said...

I remember when my son was little. I do miss those days. Enjoy the special moments while she is still little. She just looks so precious. :-)

Person(Also Known As Mommy) said...

I feel exactly the same with our two. I always try to take some extra time at night after Monkeypants is asleep to get some mommy daughter fun bonding time in, but I can't help but notice I don't dote on her nearly as much as I did for our son when he was her age.

Veronica said...

She is so very gorgeous.

Wonderfully written. I think it is just a matter of savouring the time we do have.

trying said...

It is hard with the second one isnt it? I look at him toddling about sometimes and I think of where in the world the time has gone. (of course as we have discussed earlier a great amount has gone to digging things out of the toilet)

As we start to think about number three I wonder if he/she will get any attention!

Enjoy the baby days while they last!

 
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